But I just realized, I feel the same alienation with feminism. And now having realized that, I feel more alone than I already did. I was steeped in feminism from the time I was a young teen and it always informed my worldview, but there was always some discomfort. I could never quite figure out which direction to go with my life, and feminism told me I could do anything I wanted to, which was nice, but ... not really complete enough for me. Since becoming a Christian, I feel like I have a little more guidance. And like I said, my church is really liberal so I feel like I can reconcile my differing sets of beliefs there. But I was reading a feminist blog last night and getting so annoyed by the dismissive views that some people had of Christianity, and also by the "If you don't want to have sex, just don't have it" mentality. I don't want to go into a ton of irrelevant detail, but let me just say that in my younger days, I had a really hard time figuring out how to act sexually, and I felt like feminism gave me precisely zero guidance on that. I read the works of women who were embracing sex-positivity and wondered why I wasn't more like that, thought I should be like that... and only realized way later that I could have gone a different direction, but it wasn't one that I saw represented in mainstream feminism. "If you don't want to have sex, just don't have it" is not sufficient to help young people work out their sexual choices, pros and cons.
A lot of religious feminism seems to focus on the idea that women are called to be homemakers and mothers and that's perfectly okay and women are really equal to men, which doesn't seem sufficient to me.
I'm not really sure what I'm looking for here. I'm trying to accept that my particular mishmash of beliefs and the way I look at the world means that people frequently aren't going to understand me and that's okay. But it's kind of hard to accept that.
It helps me to remember that people didn't really understand Jesus either, so if I'm going to try to walk in His way, that sort of goes with the territory.
What do you folks think?